Back to Colorado??

Well shoot how did this happen? I am moving back to Colorado only a mere two weeks after I left? I was so ready to be back in California however now I have accepted a position working in sales for a company that I love. The job itself isn't ideal but is a great stepping stone to where I want to be. I will be calling 120 people a day trying to make contact with them and get them started on booking a tour with our company. To be completely honest I am totally terrified. The idea of moving to Denver where I know all of 1 person and at this moment no desire to be in that city I get a little bit nervous about the move. What I have come to realize though is that changes like these are the kinds that help you define your life. Yes it's happening WAY quicker than I had hoped for but for all of you who know me I'm kind of like a tornado when I come through. I fly in and out wreaking chaos everywhere. So maybe this is just true to form for me, I came home overwhelmed my mom and have now decided to up and move before my mom completes wants to strangle me for being such a mess. Kevin and I have been apart now for a few weeks and this 9 hour time difference is KILLING me! It is so hard to find time in our days that coincide with when we are both available and it usually turns into one of us waking up earlier than we want to or staying up later than we had planned. It's been great to talk to him and hear what he has to say. He has been incredible through this whole crazy transition of mine. We were both excited at the prospect of me being able to move to the UK for 3-6 months working for a family where I would be only a 1 hour flight away from him and he would be studying there the second half of my stay. It seemed perfect, maybe too perfect because shortly after we both got really excited about what seemed like a set deal it all fell through. The family was wonderful but her husband has a great job with British Airways and I would have to lie at immigration and it would have just been too much so we decided we needed to nix that plan. Understandable and probably safer so I'm not sitting in some jail being deported but TOTALLY sucked that Kevin and I don't know when we will get to see each other next. At this point we are just living our lives one day at a time and seeing how the next day happens. Lately the days haven't been happening to great for either of us. Kevin is having a hard time being back at school with life moving so much faster than life in Breck. I had a similar experience coming back and seeing old friends and having to jump into the job apps and real world stuff. Being a big kid isn't fun no matter what anyone tells you. This past weekend I went to Vegas with my good friend John since he needed a no stress date and I happened to be such. We had fun but I definitely felt out of place. I went to SLO early to see people an catch up which was great and I enjoyed it even though I felt a bit too old for it. I miss the AOII girls and my guy friends like Antonio, John and Bobby. They really made my senior year my best. Now we are all headed in different directions Bobby to San Jose, John to San Diego, Antonio to socal, Bee back at home, Kelly in SF, Annie to Sacramento and the younger girls graduating. I came to finally realize that there really is no place I can go where it will ever be the same as college. No place has such a high concentration of people my age and at nearly the same stage in life. From now on it's a mix of young and old, single and coupled, families and pets etc etc. They didn't teach me this in college...WHAT THE HECK??

Until next time,

-L